The ugly part of my career

 

Hi  everyone!

So, I’m studying musical interpretation, even though I love it, there is a lot of things that I would change about it. For example, I have 8 classes this year. I don’t even have the time to practice properly, or study for every class, or have a nice time with my friends. I’m working on organizing my schedule so I can have time for myself, but it’s kinda hard.

Also, the worst experience that I had with a professor was back in 2019, when I had chamber music with some friends that were 2 years ahead of me. I hated it because the teacher didn’t gave any feedback to my classmates, just me. He asked me every class how many years I’ve been playing my instrument, and saying that I should know things that I was just learning at that moment. He was so mean, I ended up crying after his classes because I felt so humiliated. I’m not very confident at anything, so this experience didn’t help at all.

The end of the semester is stressful for everyone I think. Usually at that time of the year I sleep like 6 hours or less because there so much repertoire to play, so much exams, and so much essays. Last year I got so stressed that my skin broke into a very severe acne, so I had to put myself together and prioritize my health, also, acne treatments are so expensive, I´m still taking med for it. So please, take care TT.

(here is a picture of an exam that i recorded in april, the acne was healing yay :D)